Almost End...

Assalamualaikum n greetings,

So yeahh! Here we are 11 days before a new year of 2020.. It's 2020 guys!!!

Haha..and my 2020 Prudential calendar says '2020 A year of Doing'.. Hmmm, what to do?

And how should i end 2019? 

Owh! Well i just received an offer yesterday..for new opportunity, new environment, new work place in that big city..hurmmm..been thinking hard since last night.. Hubby has allowed me to go, but there's still few other things to consider.. especially the payment scheme since it will not be salary based..and that do scare me a bit..but other necessity are mostly provided for..so yeah..i am tempted to go..but i still need to think on how to settle all my pending jobs here.. Arghhhhh!!!!!

As all know..now is the raining season..so it's been flooding everywhere..luckily not my place..but just wishing everyone else is safe.. Along plans to come back home tomorrow..but still need to see if the road are safe for travelling..will there be any floods on the way..hope everything will be okay..

So I guess that's all for now...I'll come back before year end if i do remember..Hahahahahaha

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Fast forward towards end of year

Assalamualaikum n greeting!!

So it has come to October already..hahahahaha...long since i remember bout this ..haihhh

Life so far...fuhhhh..full of emotions..heart broken..mended and broken again..dunno if i can survive another break..

Last post was in March..April, May, June, July, August, September and now is October..half a year full of stories and all i can sum is..life has been hard on me..going thru emotional turbulence..tears that flow like a loose tap..then i found loves 😍

Work?...fuhh another disaster i suppose...huhu..i've been bad..really bad..this year must be the worst ever..due date was burnt..couldn't finish few and still struggling...i think i just lost the determination and just lost the will to do anything..hurmmm

So..end year is coming and i have nothing in mind..just wanna go thru this phase peacefully..can i?..don't think so..i have huge decision to make and again i am lost as to how to start..still dunno where should i stand..hurmmm.. CAN JUST SOMEONE DECIDE FOR ME?...

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Life so far...

Assalamualaikum n greetings,

It has come to March already. So, how's life has been so far..

Me? Left alone since hubby is gone again..for another 2 months without connection.

It has been a week so far..still don't think much..but for 2 days straight I have been dreaming of him..yeahh..I miss you boo

Just pray that he'll be alright and in good health all the time..he must miss me damn much too..

Owh..the other day I had done health screening..well, just to check if I'm doing good..but then too bad I am not..nothing much but the risk are there already..I am now a pre-diabetic..huuuuuu... also a bit high in cholesterol, uric acid and protein.. really need to change lifestyle..better food intake and exercise..hmmm

Wish me luck


'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Makan, makan & makan...

Assalamualaikum n greetings,

Kali ni nak cerita pasal makan-makan delivery kat office..hehe

Minggu lepas my ofismate dah tnya nk join order korean food or not since they are ordering and nak cukupkan kouta so that dapat free delivery charges..so I joined and get myself Bibimbap and some Kimbap..the taste are good..hot like a real korean dish..it was nice..the portion are just nice too..so I'm giving like 8/10 for both dishes.

Then she found out the one that our trainee being ordering from is actually from different vendor so we did order again 2nd time..hehe..not much of korean food here..more towards western..so I ordered spicy honey chicken with cheese and meatballs..ermmm..too bad this time the taste really a turn off..its too sweet and salty and not spicy at all..if it was more spicy maybe I'll yearn for more..too bad it's not..so I just give it 4/10..the portion are big enough..I ate half for lunch and another half for dinner

On the other day a friend ask for breakfast date at a new kopitiam..not newly open..just newly discovered by us..hahaha..it is called cafe sayang and located at Kg Langgar..somewhere around Billion Supermarket..and I had nasi belauk daging goreng..nice..it was wrapped with daun pisang so it smells and taste good..then I also had roti boy (as per picture)..they also had roti titab kind of dish called roti ayang but I didn't order it the other day..overall I would give 8/10 for the foods, location and services

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Everyday Journey...

Assalamualaikum n greetings all,

Today was a challenging day for me..hahaha..okay..challenge in terms of driving under 50kmph since I was following a trailer all the way from Pasir Puteh to Kota Bharu and it was very tiring experience.

Sakit hati sakit otak dibuatnya..hahaha..but i managed to laugh it out since I was not sleepy..if I did..hmmm maybe I'll stop by the road side and catch some sleeps but I was a bit late today so I don't think I'll be able to waste some more times.

N this is the culprit..haihhh

So..going out from jalan Jeram Pasu..the traffic was going at 30kmph..and it was very long queue..I already had to sigh..after Melor it left first and I was stuck at red lights so I had a good drive picking up on my meter..and too bad as I was about to turn to Jalan Peringat-Nilam Puri there it was..making it turns just before me...huarggggg 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 only after we got into the new highway that I manage to left..*sigh*

N I promise to wake up early tomorrow n be out by 6.30..no more late start..haihhhh



'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Self Awareness...

Assalamualaikum n greetings...

Overweight people don't know how much they're eating.

Broke people don't know how much they're spending.

Single people don't know why they're turning people off.

Notice a trend? Lack of self awareness is deadly.

-kalebfirkins-

Self awareness...I've read a tweet post as per above and a lot of things came to my mind...most people including me think we are right all the times..there is nothing wrong with us..and when other peoples view things differently..they are the one who are at fault..who are wrong..orang melayu cakap tak sedar diri..hahaha..well..myself included of course

And with my current situation..I can't stop myself from thinking..am I the one at fault? ermm..maybe not totally at faults..but being an imperfection human beings..there might be a thing or two that I have done or implied that resulted in what happening now..but..am I ready to change?..hmmm..I also dunno..hanging..no answer that I am willing to give..change for a better self?..change for a better life? and change for a better relationship?..it is not easy

Furthermore..without self awareness and always think that we are right..we tend to get mad easily, cause everyone else are always at fault..he's wrong..she's wrong..they are wrong..thinking that we are better than everyone else built up the anger..why they did this and not that..you should have done this..you should have done that..the blame game never stop..

And in relationship..this will be the killing point..who's right? who's wrong? blame game and no communication will put a stop..real communication..serious talk from heart to heart will no longer exist if none would try..

Well..there are always chances available..but do I ready for that..will I grab it? or will I stay like this...I have no answer just yet..I am not ready to put the blame on me..I am not ready to change..I am not ready of anything...

Till I have the answer..adios...

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

House Plan...

hi, just wanna show abah'a plan for the house..hehehe

So rajin of me to sketch it yesterday..hihi

So this is actually the finish product..I'd already wipe out those wall that suppose to get off the picture..hehe

Hope all will turn out well..and abah be healthy to finish the project..



'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Sleepy...

Assalamualaikum n greetings,

Morning peeps...argghhhh..so sleepy today..not yet have my dose of coffee..and I just had nasi lemak..hahahahaha nice!..

Nothing much to rant today..just living daily lives..yesterday I felt so tired and sleepy..reach home just before 7 pm and fell asleep..hubby woke me up around 8 asked to get showered and had dinner..but too tired to cook and don't feel like eating laksa..Mil bought it at market that evening..so end up drink milo and some crackers

Ahh..feel like dozing off..hahahaha..maybe I should get my coffee now..

Till then, adios...



'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

Abah's New House Plan...

Assalamualaikum n greetings to all,

So the other day I went back to Abah's place since my sis was there..been talking to Abah and he planned to renovate the house..againn..well, actually we'd been talking bout this few times since the kitchen has ruined twice.. been flooded when it's rain heavily.. So Abah has decide to make the floor higher and it does mean that we need to push up the roof as well since it is already low right now.. and that is all the plan that I know of

Well, since my sis has give him some money to start on the project, he come out with some other plan..as it may seem..hahahaha..maybe because our new neighbor has just finish renovation their house and he feels tempted to renovate as well..of course we don't have enough room for everyone now and my adik2 always sleep outside if all 4 of us are home..that might trigger him to plan further..

So basically the plan was to add up more rooms to make it 5 in total..enough for us all and bigger rooms as well with a toilet each..hahaha..nice..but of course it's going to be very costly..so he plan to start small..finish each side first..I'm more than happy to have it done..though been thinking..is Abah well enough to finish the project alone..well..he will do it by himself..mainly..with help by some kids who always help him sometimes maybe..It can save a lot on labor cost..

And it does mean that I need to contribute some fund as well to make it going..hahaha..been thinking bout that cause I ain't have any money to spend elsewhere as for now 😅😅😅 but of course will think and decide on that later on..maybe any suggestion how to earn more money to help on Abah's plan? Anyone?..hehe

But..whatever it is..I'm happy to see abah so happy talking about the project..last time we renovate the house was before my wedding day..should be 5 years back..and that time..we do help a lot since I was staying with Abah..and my bro was there to..now Abah is living alone..so a bit worry there..huhu..after discussion here and there..I did suggest for the other 4 rooms to have sharing bathrooms..so it means we going to have more space in bedroom..2 bedroom will share a bathroom and abah like it..instead of having one each..more cost saving..

Well, just hope that abah's plan gonna work well and finish beautifully..will count to that day while collecting some fund for Abah 😁😁😁

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

My Sis Was Home...

Assalamualaikum and greetings,

Hi there, so last weekend my beloved sis came home on new years eve..so my celebration of new year was with her in the car..haha.. took her back to abah's place and I was on leave on the 1st..just hangin around with her..

So on Friday I went back to abah's to pick her up and we went for a nice outing before sent her off to her friend's house. Well, she promise to take me lepaking at coffee bean for some coffee and scone..auchh..I miss having scone but too bad the one we have that day a bit too sweet foe me..but still enjoying it much

Hazelnut Iced Latte

My sis adding too much jam 😒

Actually we were unable to make up our mind at first since my sis saw Kenny Rogers on the other side and tell me she would like to have it too..hahaha..at first I thought just buy the coffee and we go and eat at KR. But then I still want to have the scone so we decide to just eat there at the CB and since we're going to Tesco next to get some clothes from Nagoya, I told her to just have KR there at Tesco later. Owh..when we was there at Aeon Mall she asked me to came in Tucz and she got me a blouse..hihihihi..happy me of course..forgot to take a pic..so no pic for my new blouse..later maybe when I have it on.. 

So we went to Tesco n bought some clothes and then enjoying our chicken butter at KR..so yummylicious..hahahaha 

Too bad it's carbonated..but it's still good

New chicken butter..nice combo

Get some como crepe to make Kain Sarung Lipat

After Tesco we went straight to my tailor and sent some kain..then I couldn't decide whether to sent her straight to her friend or joined them later that night at McDonalds..hahaha..well that was because I can't decide whether to drove back home to my in laws or just stay at KB that night..hmm But then decided to went back to PP so I dropped her off at her friend's but that was after we got some McCafe coffee..hhahaha..only for me cause she's going to McD that night.. so coffee it is again, drop her off and went back..just to eat more at home..haahaha..Dunno what became of me that day..that was all because of that eating partner..we both love foods so much..hahahaha 

Drive thru was so long..haiihh..I asked for cone ice cream but sadly no ice cream that day..so apple pie it is

So basically she was home to eat..eat..and eat some more..hahahahah

And this morning she already went back to KL..dunno when she will be back again so we can continue our food journey..haha 

Babaiii sis..till we meet again...

'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'

A new year...a new...

Assalamualaikum n greetings,

Hi peeps..it is 2019 and we are already on the 2nd page..

As I had post in my socmed..I had a low start for this year..feeling meh with nothing much in mind and in hope to fly high towards the end.

Well, we still don't know what 2019 will bring..but hoping is all we have right now while taking our steps slowly..I just don't wanna run right away..

Life is okay..so so..nothing much happening around me..work is fine too..lots of it but still finding courage..as always..emotionally up and down this few weeks and I don't think it will be okay soon..maybe some more times needed until I fully figure out what has been happening behind my back..too slow picking up hints and too late to notice..but I thinks I'll manage..what more can I say right?..huhu

Then there's in laws issue..hmm..dunno how to start on this one..too many things happened  and it ends up with one of the sister not coming home for more than 2 years already if I'm not mistaken..so few days back she suddenly contacted me asking how is everyone doing..so suddenly..huhu..dunno how to react actually but just go with the flow..why did she choose me to be the middle person..haihhhh..dunno of I'm going to be good..but so far it's going great 😅😅

So..hoping to have excellent result on that..will update here later on if it happen..

Then there's abah who's going to start a new project on the house soon..hahaha..thank God my sis is home these few days to help him start..I really dunno how to start if I was even there..so..gonna wait how it turn out to be..just hoping for abah to be healthy for a long time..I'm not really a good daughter..rarely checks on him..huhuhu..but i do hope for the best for him..always

So I guess this is all for today's updates..hoping to jot down more from time to time while brush up my English and verbs..haven't read or write for quite sometimes..and talking seems impossible here..don't really have anyone who I can converse in English..huhu

Till then..adios...

P/s : Owh..maybe later I will update on pics..need too pick n choose first which one to put up here 😉


'walk on with hope in your heart and you'll never walk alone...'